Wednesday

Visited by Grandpa in a Dream?

First some dreams. I had a weird dream the other night, it was about my mother’s father (a person I can’t remember ever meeting). I can’t remember it well anymore since I woke up after the dream and fall asleep again. I remember that we (mom and my sisters) were worried about him since he wanted to go away, and he used to leave the house when we didn’t notice. He was old, and walked slowly with his cane. One day (or night?) he was gone and we started to search for him. I remember walking down path somewhere, towards him obviously; I was alone. It was in the middle of nature since there were trees and grass. Somehow I knew he had gone that way. When I reached him, he was still walking away from that something, and I asked him why he left. He told me, being very tired, that he simply didn’t want to be there. I had no idea where he was going. At some point the others came. Grandpa was all of the sudden lying on the ground, and said that he couldn’t carry on and then he passed away, very peacefully; it looked like he had just fallen asleep.
This is the first time I’ve seen anything like this. Mom said that she thinks she was visited by her father lately as well, and that my dream most likely means something. I believe that too, I just have no idea what it could be…
Next, a dream I don’t have anymore. For years I’ve been dreaming about telekinesis. I’ve been seeing those dreams regularly, and they’re always about me. In the beginning, many many years ago, I had a huge desire (in a dream) to be able to move objects without physically touching them. Somehow I managed to move a small objec,t just a little, and it took a lot of energy to do that. From there I began developing that ability, gradually being able to move bigger objects. Then I learned to move more than one at the same time; first slowly, then faster and further. Lately I’ve been really good at that, throwing objects like in Star Wars, trusting myself, knowing what I’m doing, getting rid of that “I wanna show others” attitude. And now I haven’t seen those dreams for a while. I have no idea what’s the meaning in them, probably showing how I’ve improved during these years… Not in telekinesis but in conquering my illness or something A pity that I don’t have those dreams anymore, they were so much fun.

Weird Mini Tornado Dream

I had an interesting dream the other night. I Can’t remember much of it anymore but it went somehow like this… I remember a large open area, the landscape being pretty much just rock and sand. Everything was gray and brown; some hills but nothing higher than that. The birches were there from the beginning, the way they look like in winter: no leaves in them… I can’t quite recall if it was morning or evening, but the sky was slightly clouded and the wind was blowing. I wasn’t alone, there were others too, apparently some of them I knew somehow. None of them were from real life though. I remember looking at the sky, watching how the wind twisted the clouds in a way it shouldn’t, and I noticed clear signs of what was about to happen. I told somebody to look at the sky and said that the wind was unusually strong and not coming from only one direction. While explaining this, the clouds (that didn’t cover the sky completely) began to circle each other above us, the wind getting even stronger, and I said that they were forming a tornado. I didn’t feel afraid, I just passively observed everything. So, we got the tornado. Not a big one, just twice or three times higher than a human being but still a powerful and scary one. I can’t remember people being in panic; perhaps because I didn’t really observe them, I was fascinated by the tornado. The person I spoke with earlier asked me what we should we do to avoid danger, just like I would have been the only one to know what to do. Perhaps it was because I was the only one totally calm. I told them to grab a tree, a strong one, and hold on tight not to get swept away by it. More tornados appeared, about the same size, can’t remember how many but there were more than three. Following my own advice I held onto a tree as the tornados approached me. I remember moving, trying to avoid it, and managing pretty well, but it seemed to have a will of its own and purposefully coming after me, lol! I was like, “f*** no, you won’t get me” and with calm determination refused to let go, knowing that I was going to win after all. I felt that strong pulling sensation, trying to get me to let go, yet I didn’t, and after bugging me for a short while it left. I remember some smaller trees flying around but obviously nobody got hurt, well, I didn’t at least, can’t remember what happened after that.
I sometimes dream about strong natural phenomena like wildfires and tornados, but even though I’m there and have a lot of “it was close” situations I never have gotten hurt. I’m not sure about what’s coming, changes at least, but I’m confident that I’ll make it through whatever trials might come to my way. So far no idea about the meaning of this dream. Perhaps it’s just an unrecognized wish of mine, to be able to help people through the difficulties, to be strong? To be a leader, to be something I could be proud of?..